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Chapter one: The sun shines again.   
07:33pm 16/08/2005
mood: content
I love it when you say I'm all you want,
not just all you need.

I've finally figured myself out.
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11:23am 01/03/2005
mood: awake
i am 19 today.
am i supposed to feel anny different?
i'm taller. i think.
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03:51pm 13/01/2005
mood: blah

'...happiness is like is like a plate of glass we carry in our heads'
03:32pm 20/12/2004
mood: annoyed
find me the fastest car an throw me the keys..
best weekend..   
10:05am 08/12/2004
mood: groggy
guess what this is?Collapse )
11:58am 01/12/2004
mood: exhausted
i guess its just a matter of time...
hope that everyone enjoys their holiday.
off to queens for the weekend...
don't do it in the first place..   
08:21pm 25/09/2004
mood: gah..
I'll fight until we're the special two again..
my hands need to be taught not to hold anothers...
we'll breathe together..

in-case u change ur mind,
i won't let you down..

we could only see each other
we'll bleed together..
we're the special two..

i need something to ease the pain..
remember how we were?
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10:09am 27/08/2004
  i got a new lj cause i hate this one.. its full of old memories and crap.. so i started fresh.. post if u want to be added..  
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08:37am 26/08/2004
  merrin, you & me have to hang out before school..
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07:16pm 25/08/2004
mood: loved
that was the sweetest thing that i have ever read in my entire life. you were only gone for a few days but it felt like forever. i'm so glad that you are you. i'm so glad that we are we. i'm bursting.. i can't even put words to it anymore..

ashley said a very smart thing to me at jacs party last year :

" who gives a fuck as long as your having fun "

i feel alive like i could jump over the tallest of tall buildings.. you know when you get that feeling like everything in life is working..

....right now.. yup yup.. i got it.
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10:58am 25/08/2004
  i'm excited that your home.
check your email & i'll call you tonight.
i hope you had an amazing time.

off to work...
11:01am 24/08/2004
  never her first,
definitly not her last..
that makes you her nothing..
10:39pm 23/08/2004
  i'm telling you openly
you have my heart,
now please don't hurt me.
08:21am 23/08/2004
  and they might be just my size...  
04:11pm 22/08/2004
  Common, Common...
turn a little faster
the world will fallow after
cause everybodys after love...
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11:13pm 17/08/2004
  i would drive a thousand miles just to kiss you.

sleep well.
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11:29pm 16/08/2004
mood: optimistic
How I felt this morning when I arrived at camp:
"it makes no sense
i cant breathe and her eyes are dry
but still i will fuck her to keep alive
plus my arms are still broke but watch me h..e..a..l..."

How I felt tonight after I talked to you:
This town don't feel mine
I'm fast to get away
I dressed you in her clothes
So drive me far away
It feels good to know you're all mine
Now drive me far away
I don't care where just far away

Thank you for showing me what & who I really am.
Your beautiful both inside & out.
An your mine.
This will work. I just know it.
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06:26pm 15/08/2004

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slurry slurry nite..   
03:26pm 15/08/2004
mood: hung over
"if everything goes wrong if its one more endless night..
you know there always tomorrow...."

So things didn't go just as we planned. Sometimes that's just the way that things work out. Just keep in mind that we have all the time in the world.

Fav. Quote of the night.. "i promise in a month or a month an a half, the jealousy will be gone i promise you.."

What a very drunken & crazy night, I can't believe that there is only one week of camp left. I'm sad but in a way I have learned so much from all of you, and we're like a family now. In all of my 18 years this has been the summer I will never forget.

not a maybe, just say yes.
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The Song. (everything)   
08:03pm 10/08/2004
  I can be a nightmare of the grandest kind.
I can withhold like its going out of style.
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen.
And you've never met anyone who's as positive as I am sometimes.

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate and your still here.

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-agressiveness can be devestating
I'm the most gorgeous woman that you have ever known
And you never met anyone who's as everything as I am sometimes.

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate and your still here.

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how high or low I go.

and your still here...